Today, it was brought to my attention that a friend I met in Austin TX back in 2001 had died.
Not only had I been unaware of this fact but she had died back in 2012.
Seriously, whatever sort of person am I that I would miss such a fact. This lovely lass is a friend on Facebook. There were comments made by friends offering condolences. Did I notice? No. Did I read through her page the last time Facebook announced her birthday? Obviously not. Just how unaware could I really be to have not just checked in once in a while?
I'm now mortified with myself for my lack of attention to someone who I really liked. For not noticing. Something as major as that and I didn't notice for over two fucking years.
I realise I am quite anti - social. I have never denied this fact but never did I think I was this sucky as a friend.
I have thankfully grown from this. My friend who obviously deserved much better has taught me to be more aware. Notice when people aren't there and certainly more attentive.
I'm sorry Kate. I let you down. I will try to better myself knowing this.
