A friday the 13th I would like to forget.

Annoyingly for some, Friday the 13th's are normally rather good in the pants household.

Unfortunately today wasn't the case in the slightest.

After a brief morning at work, I then had to bite the bullet and take schmooster to the vets as the tumour was getting to the stage it affected her eating, washing and general comfort.

I've never actually taken a pet to be put down before and even the though of it coming home from work before hand had me in tears. The vets are really good about it all but there is just nothing more heart wrenching than knowing you've killed something that you loved so much, regardless of how much it was for their own good in the long run.

I've just buried her in her favourite spot in the back garden where she used to sunbathe. I really do hope she is no longer in pain and at some point I will stop crying and missing her because at this moment in time it just hurts so much.

I'm so sorry Schmoo, please forgive me

x

I swear to god...

I am gonna punch someone.

Schmoo is still as fine as can be expected, but now just in case I wasn't "petted out" bloody DB seems to have pulled her sodding back again and has been in a lot of pain all day.

She must have done something to pull it over night as was reluctant to go into the garden this morning without an escort, she's walking like someone's stuck a stick up her arse and when she's had enough of walking just sits down and stays put for an hour or two.

We did finally manage to get her to go out for a crap this morning, then we went out for an hour to allow her to settle down and rest. That did her some good as she was much chirpier when we got back home but she is still uncomfortable. 

The worst problem? For a dog she is a proper worrier, it gets really silly sometimes with her winding herself up into a panting frenzy.

So we are going to keep plying her with the anti-inflammatory tablets which do help her settle and sleep, give her overnight tonight and see how she is in the morning.

I swear if Tigger now gets anything wrong with her I will scream!

Ahhh fuck it

Bad news, I am temporarily back on the fags.

The reason I say temporarily is just a minor setback in the life of pants and thats poor little schmoo or Nipper as her name is and for that reason I am just really fucked off.

We got the lab results back from her lump and it seems it's quite a nasty invasive one of which we could send her to have it operated on they say there is normally only a good change of recovery if they take a good 2 - 3 cm of tissue from around the lump and seeing as this lump is currently located in her jaw, that would be pretty much her entire head so no, that just isn't going to happen. They are saying how invasive it has been already we will be lucky if she survives around a month.

On the plus side she went in this morning to have her stitches out and has since managed to open up the wound again so back she went again this afternoon to the vets who decided it wasn't worth trying to stitch it back up again as that would just seal in whatever gunk is still trying to weep out and we should just keep it clean. Not that it's bothering her - we always said she was quite stupid that one and that's seeming to be a good point at the moment as she's still as happy as Larry and toddling around as if she has not a care in the world bless her.

Obviously we are both quite gutted but will certainly appreciate the last few weeks that we have the little dafty loon with us still.

 I hate this part of owning pets. Breaks your heart when they do decide that's it.

Poor little schmoo.

I swear to god am gonna kill someone.

Today I can only describe my mood as angry... bloody angry.

Not only have we now had it confirmed that schmoo nippy noo has a cancerous lump of which the operation which could remove it, is very unlikely to to actually cure anything which has left us with a cat who all in all is currently not bothered by it as we are going to let her be now until the point when she is no longer comfortable then go with the option we are dreading.

Bless her cottons lets hope she hangs in there for a while yet.

And now just in case that wasn't annoying enough, what is with people buying stuff on ebay, breaking it then wanting a refund? Thats two we have now fucking had in the last week and I am sick to the back teeth of it.

all I will say is

wankers!

 

Life can be really mean sometimes.

Hmmm having a bit of a gutted kind of a day. 

We took one of the cats into the vets the other week as she had a lump appear on her jaw to the left side of her face. Not that it is bothering her or anything but obviously concerned us two. 

The put her out, stuck a needle in it to give us an idea as to what we are possibly dealing with. She them came back with what was an enlarged saliva gland thing with a dose of anti-biotics to ease it down.

Bad news is it didn't and we took her back in today, they put her out, opened it up and have now decided that it is in fact likely to be a tumour which is spreading down towards her throat. So they have now biopsied it to send away to tell us if it is benign or not.

Poor little Nipper. Not that it is bothering her just well, apart from the effects of still being off her tits from being knocked out.

So hopefully the test will come back clear and we will have at least a while with her before any drastic action could possibly be needed.

Fingers crossed all will go well... wish us luck.

x

Oooooohhhh shiny templates

Yeah I know, a sucker for a new button to play about with things.

So I'm back today. Deciding that I actually don't spend enough time being "online social" as I have previously been in the past... so... here's what I have decided to start making a bit of an effort with:

Facebook... nah, not really. As most of you are aware I have two accounts. One for people who are likely to be reading this who I actually talk to and like of which is not searchable, the other which all the twats and fuck wits I used to work with or go to school with get the privilege of. (Or not as the case is)

Twitter - ohhh forgot about that again... so have activated my phone and will honestly make a slight effort to start using it. I wont be linking it to Facebizzle though.

My blog.... nope scratch that I'm doing that now - veeeeery sneaky miss B lol

Other than that rubbish, here's a minor update.

legs of little passed his motorbike test yesterday (well done hon!)

I have had a virtual week off as we have had no work in, honestly getting bored with it now.

Today's efforts are to cut the grass, weed the garden and re-pot some of the random veg getting a bit mad these days!

Who would have thought?

Making the effort - well sort of!

Seeing as he is such a star, Legs decided to treat me to a pair of the latest Reebok Easytone trainers to see if doing what I do every day (namely walking) could help try to tone up ones rather enlarged due to giving up the fags weight gain. 

Ok so I'm not expecting them to help me lose weight but they can't not help to at least tone up what is there!

 So after owning the trainers for a few days and knowing that they were already doing something, he also treated me to a pair of the flip flop versions to wear as slippers round the house too.

Bargain!

  So major thanks to the other half for his cash efforts towards my efforts to try to tone up and lose weight, you're lovely :D

And if my arse ever looks like even remotely like the arse in the picture below,

I will be VERY happy!