Current mood:
drunk Category: Life
It means I haven't had even a sniff of any alcohol for days… which as you know for me is very much a surprise.
So being the night before I am going back to work tomorrow and feeling well enough to have some drinkies, I have partaken in what could be said is slightly more than I should have white wine. Sooo…..
Now I am not completely shitfaced, and you will know this from my ever so genuine writing efforts here. But am must be said somewhat tiddly yes.
Which brings me to a whoooole drunk topic of weirdness and, well nothing new for me type shit.
Things that have recently been on my mind.
One of which is: am I really THAT bad that no one would ever want me? Well problem is with thinking thoughts like this when slightly drunk and somewhat more honest than normal due to a rather large amount of winery type juice.
Hmmm tricky one that. Honest answer? The people or persons who are involved in my life right now have noooo idea how I really feel. And if they did know, would probably be quite offended to know that – if I am brutally honest…? I don't know yet!
Yes I do care for this person in question very much but as for more? I don't think so. In fact this person in question has proven to me that I can hold back and wait until I am truly sure of what I really want without doing that whole 'jumping the gun quick smart bollocks' that I always do. Now that really can't be bad can it?
But in all seriousness – I don't honestly know. Maybe he will be good for me – who knows or cares? At this moment in time in my head he's nowt more than a good friend and will stay that way until I am good and proper sure that it is the right thing to do/go with decide… or whatever you want to call it. Until that moment, I'm sorry babe but you are just a damn good fuck my dear!
Some day I will decide but until I do you will be in the dark just as much as me!
(What a surprise!)
 | Currently listening: Rudebox By Robbie Williams Release date: 30 October, 2006 |
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